FUCK SCHOOL!
I DONT NEED SMARTS
OR REGRET
GOD
GOD!!!!!!!!
im trying so hard to confess my feelings...
I used to try to fall in love.
I gave up.
i mean... not really no one ever gives up looking for love. isnt that all we want? i dont care if thats true or not thats how i will look at people.
GOD DAMN
Im not supposed to say that but ... i do say that.
i used to even try to not say it in my head.
my emotions got overwhelmed when my family fell apart.
so now i am just letting go one by one of what i once held dear.
its all starts when you begin to part your hair onthe other side.
I used to not cuss.
i used to not peek at naked girls
i used to not indulge in negativity
i used to not drink
i used to not smoke
i used to not do drugs. I mean I dont do drugs.
I used to not say god
i used to be a virgin.
i used to be
i used to b
i used to
i used t
i used
i use
i us
i u
i
THIS KID IS REALLY FUCKIN VAIN.
.
its all gone now. what have I not lost?
Im trying to free myself by tangling myself in chains of regret.
IM JUST TRYING TO BE HONEST IM NOT PERFECT!!!!!!
i dont like using the word perfect either. i should probably just say that i dont like living up to the expectations that my past raised me with. only because i put so much hope into and watched it all fall apart.
i guess im scared to see that happen again. thats why im crazy. maybe i can get it out of my system.
IM A 23 YEAR OLD MAN, and this is what I do on a monday night. im probably a disappointment to my lineage..
eek.
I should probably do more manly things like not talk about my feelings are try to express myself or whatever.
maybe i should try, violence.
perhaps i could just drown my feelings in alcohol. because thats what my grandpa would do. i mean i love him but i dont know him.
my grand kids will know me. at least this 23 y.o version piece of shit me.
I love my family a lot.
they really dont understand.
so much.
CELEBRATE THE NEW FATE OF SKYLAR WAILLAIAMS
I lost my virginity las week.
these are the psychological effects.
i will be really embarrassed if any of this gets back to me.
but then again who gives a FAT FUCK. there are LITERALLY BILLIONS OF PEOPLE ON THE EARTH.
at least thats what I was told and at sure seems tthats the case.
I DONT NEED SMARTS
OR REGRET
GOD
GOD!!!!!!!!
I used to try to fall in love.
I gave up.
i mean... not really no one ever gives up looking for love. isnt that all we want? i dont care if thats true or not thats how i will look at people.
GOD DAMN
Im not supposed to say that but ... i do say that.
i used to even try to not say it in my head.
my emotions got overwhelmed when my family fell apart.
so now i am just letting go one by one of what i once held dear.
its all starts when you begin to part your hair onthe other side.
i used to not peek at naked girls
i used to not indulge in negativity
i used to not drink
i used to not smoke
i used to not do drugs. I mean I dont do drugs.
I used to not say god
i used to be a virgin.
i used to b
i used to
i used t
i used
i use
i us
i u
i
its all gone now. what have I not lost?
Im trying to free myself by tangling myself in chains of regret.
i dont like using the word perfect either. i should probably just say that i dont like living up to the expectations that my past raised me with. only because i put so much hope into and watched it all fall apart.
eek.
I should probably do more manly things like not talk about my feelings are try to express myself or whatever.
maybe i should try, violence.
perhaps i could just drown my feelings in alcohol. because thats what my grandpa would do. i mean i love him but i dont know him.
my grand kids will know me. at least this 23 y.o version piece of shit me.
I love my family a lot.
they really dont understand.
so much.
but then again who gives a FAT FUCK. there are LITERALLY BILLIONS OF PEOPLE ON THE EARTH.
at least thats what I was told and at sure seems tthats the case.
