been working hard at the family buiness ever since i got home back in november.

Ive been figuring out more car stuff lately. been studying about how to do basic engine part replacement, diagnostic and proper techniques. I think this will help me with work and building i positive future.

my only trouble is I dont see any sort of future for myself anymore. I dont see anything coming.  i mean this in a very existential eluvium type of way.

Do i not make it past this point?

im sure i will, i think this just means Im living.